I have been struggling these days. I realised that I have a personal breakdown / crash / rebirth every 2 years. The last one was 2 years ago. In those times, I tend to feel as if I was giving birth (although I do not and may never know what that feels like). It hurts and it's uncomfortable during the process, and then I am fine again, with something brand new and beautiful to accompany me. Every time, it seems like I am drawing a strong and steady bridge to the strange uncompromising, kind of homely and opinionated, standing up for herself teenager that I was. I need time to spend alone in such moments, and thankfully I am learning to say no and tell my friends that I need to be alone... I'm finally hearing myself think again. Only one more day of work.
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I can so relate, It takes me more years than you but I'm just at the same place as you are... feeling that I'm changing inside and as if I'm out of step with everything (and everyone). I tend to think: one day less till it's done.
It's nice when people say they can relate <3
Hi Delphine, I found your blog today and this post reminds me of something that a good friend told me recently. When she was a child her mother would let her stay home from school sometimes if she felt that everything was getting a bit overwhelming for her. She'd call them 'catch up days', where she could just take it slow, snuggle up on the couch with her cat or wander in the garden. It was only when she was older that she realised that not everyone has 'catch up days', but I think we all should!
I can relate as well. I honestly do feel that it can be a good thing, to shed parts of your life or aspects of yourself like a snake sheds it's skin--to slough off old ways and habits and routines and begin a little fresher. Often painful, in the transition, but I've never not felt better afterward for going through it. Hope that makes sense. Good luck with yours.
Jenni, this is such a great story, I'll try to remember this for the time I have children :)
Maggie, it totally makes sense, thanks for sharing this. I am shedding too!
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