jeudi 20 septembre 2012
When being alone is all that I need
I have been struggling these days. I realised that I have a personal breakdown / crash / rebirth every 2 years. The last one was 2 years ago. In those times, I tend to feel as if I was giving birth (although I do not and may never know what that feels like). It hurts and it's uncomfortable during the process, and then I am fine again, with something brand new and beautiful to accompany me. Every time, it seems like I am drawing a strong and steady bridge to the strange uncompromising, kind of homely and opinionated, standing up for herself teenager that I was. I need time to spend alone in such moments, and thankfully I am learning to say no and tell my friends that I need to be alone... I'm finally hearing myself think again. Only one more day of work.